Hare Krishna!

Please accept my most humble obeisances at the dust of Your divine lotus feet! All glories to You on the auspicious occasion of Your Sacred Vyasa Puja day! All glories to His Divine Grace Srila Prabhupada! All glories to Sri Sri Radha Rasabihariji!

I thank Lord Krishna for giving me an opportunity to glorify my spiritual master on this auspicious day. I am always looking forward for this glorious day to worship our dearest Guru Maharaja. Thank You Guru Maharaja for giving me this little chance to express my devotion towards You.

Your kind mercy has picked me up from the midst of the material whirlpool and brought me near the Golden Gate. Now it is up to me to open this gate and start my journey. All this while I have been talking a lot but doing nothing practically. Now I have realised what it takes to be a Vaisnava..

You have been there for me Always! Guiding me spiritually solving my endless material chaos, helping me to setup my business, for my every little query You Always had an encouraging answer. I became puffed up with all Your sweet gentleness. Please Guru Maharaja chastise me otherwise I will just flow away in the deep current of maya. She is very dangerous and can take hold of anyway if that person is not careful. I don't want to play with her because I am very, very weak in my sadhana. I took Krishna Consciousness very easy, never tried to scrutinize it. You told me once that I should be happy. "Chant and be Happy". Somehow I could never feel this happiness now when maya has hit me strongly and surrounded me from all the direction and I have no other way but to cry for Lord Krishna's Lotus feet…

...and to open those gates where You are so eagerly waiting to take me back in the amazing world. Not Jurassic Park or Disney Land as my childish mind would always go for… But a world of substance, where there is an escape from the repeated cycle of birth and death! Vaikuntha dham is the destination!!

I have to be careful and cautious that is my understanding, as You told me to read out loudly the ten offenses against the Hari nama and then start the japa, I have now started doing this and very obviously I could feel the essence of that divine happiness. Under any circumstances I do not want this state of my mind to get contaminated. When I follow Your kind instructions this is the pleasure I dwell into!! but due to my desires, which are so strong that I get captured in the same whirlpool. So Please help me Guru Maharaja, chain me like a dog and bang my head to the ground. When You do that I would feel as the tiniest particle of atom which in return would help me Gurudeva; to lovingly, honestly serve You and carry on with Your instructions without fail.

I have so many things to say but again they will be like a mouthful of sky, aiming the arrows without proper target. As we have designations like Graphic Designer, XYZ Manager etc., I want to be a Vaisnavi in its etiquette. Then I hope there is a fair chance for an insignificant soul like me to smear the divine dust of Your lotus feet.

I sincerely pray to Sri Sri Radha Krishna and to Srila Prabhupada to bestow Their kind mercy on my dearest Guru Maharaja on this appearance day of His Vyasa Puja and bless Him with a very long, healthy, Krishna Conscious life and let He be able to spread the mission of Lord Gauranga throughout the World!!

Please forgive me on my offenses and a mere attempt to glorify Your unfathomable glories.

Begging to be Your dasi,
Madhuri