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by Govinda dasi ACBSP |
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After Gaurasundara and I had been traveling and living with Srila Prabhupada for about a year, Srila Prabhupada began to encourage us to go and open a temple. He would sometimes say: "We have become just like a family but now it is time to go and preach." He would say: "It is time to push you out of the nest", and later on he would joke that "like birds he had pushed us out of the nest to fly". Gaurasundara left for Hawaii in September for opening a preaching center and later on, in January of 1969, I left Srila Prabhupada in Los Angeles and also came to Hawaii. Gaurasundara had rented a house in Kaawa (?) about 45 minutes from Honolulu by ocean on about 7 acres of land. He also had a small storefront; it actually was an office building in Honolulu where the preaching center was held. The area around Kaawa was a very beautiful jungle retreat, yet there were houses nearby. One day, shortly after I arrived Gaurasundara and I walked to a small grocery store, opposite Swanzy (?) Park, which later became a tirtha, where Srila Prabhupada took his daily walks. On the way back from the store we stumbled upon a tiny kitten, just two or three feet from the side of the road. The helpless creature was sure to be hit by a car, so we asked some children playing nearby to take him home with them. Then we walked the remaining half-mile back to our home. When we returned home I could not find my japa beads anywhere, which had been with me on my walk. So we retraced our steps and there besides the road, next to the small kitten were my sacred beads. They had fallen from the bead bag and the kitten was still there. Compassionately, Gaurasundara and I decided that since the children were not going to help him we would. We picked up the small animal and brought him home. The last thing I wanted was a pet cat. So I had mixed feelings about this, yet we decided to give him some shelter until he was larger and we could find a home for him. He was a very tiny, wining, whimpering kitten who would always get under our feet and we would always have to avoid stepping on him. Then we got a telegram that Srila Prabhupada was coming. What to do? I was embarrassed that we had this kitten and we had not yet found a home for him. So when Srila Prabhupada came the kitten was still there. Srila Prabhupada would often affectionately tease me about the small kitten and even in lectures he would mention it. Sometimes when I worked down in the garden outside, Srila Prabhupada would watch me from his window up above and he would see the kitten running around at my feet. Then, later on he would chuckle and say: "Oh, this cat is always at Govinda dasi's feet but that is fortunate because she is Vaisnavi". This kitten had the constant habit of getting under foot, almost tripping people as they walked. It stayed outside the kitchen door and each morning when Srila Prabhupada went for his walk, he invariably stepped it on. I was often amazed at how often this small creature managed to get under Srila Prabhupada's lotus feet as he left for his daily walk, and as it was always hungry, prasadam scrubs was given to her daily. Of course, I felt somewhat embarrassed for the situation, so we continued to look for a home for the small cat. Srila Prabhupada stayed with us for about a month and the day of his departure we had a chanting and feast program at our home. Many people came and one young couple agreed to adopt this kitten. We were glad to find her a good home. A few days later, however, they informed us that the kitten had suddenly died the very evening Srila Prabhupada had left Hawaii. I then wondered at the good fortune of the kitten that daily was stepped on by Srila Prabhupada's lotus feet. Thank you, Srila Prabhupada for giving your grace to anyone, even a small cat that takes shelter under your lotus feet. May we always remember to take shelter beneath your lotus feet and focus our love entirely on you and Krsna and be spared the danger of taking birth in the body of a deer, a cat, a dog, or any other creature or we cannot serve you in the most complete way. Thank you, Srila Prabhupada.
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We had met Swamiji in San Francisco, and only a few days before
Swamiji left for New York, Gaurasundara, my husband, and I decided
we desperately wanted to go there with him. After all, we had
left college in November in search of a spiritual teacher and
we met Swamiji in December or early January of 1967, and now
only a couple of months later he was leaving for New York City.
We had no other life; he was our life. The two months in San
Francisco, reading his Srimad Bhagavatam, attending his lectures
daily and painting pictures for him had given us a taste of bhakti.
We had no other goal than to follow him. Like the Pied Piper
we wanted to follow along. So we approached him at his San Francisco
apartment and asked if we could come to New York. His smile brightened
as he saw our sincerity of purpose and he nodded, saying: "Why
not?" So, Gaurasundara and I began searching for a way from
San Francisco to New York. Since we had very little money, we
hoped to get a ride. Gaurasundara went out to the local hip shops
to put up signs, advertising for a ride back East, and while
he was out he met some San Francisco hippies who were driving
straight to New York. They were leaving in about an hour. Gaurasundara
rushed home, we packed our few belongings and we were ready to
go almost immediately. About two days before Swamiji's departure
from San Francisco we headed out to New York; we figured Krsna
had arranged the whole thing. It took us 4 days driving day and
night, taking turns driving, to reach the East Coast, which meant
we could arrive only two days after Swamiji's flight from San
Francisco landing. After a few minor harrowing adventures on
the way, we arrived safely in New York in very early morning
of March of 1967. When we arrived, it was around 6:30 or 7 in
the morning, and we opened the door to 26, 2nd Avenue and fell
to our knees in obeisances and gratitude. The scene was unforgettable:
Swamiji was sitting on a raised dais, chanting and he was surrounded
by a small group of devotees, singing the beautiful morning tune.
Billows of incense filled the air and the aura of heavyliness
was intoxicating. Drones of the vina hummed lovely and Swamiji
himself expertly played the mrdanga. The vina player, who had
a sikha that was like a long curl in the back of his head, wore
robes. Other devotees also were dressed in dhotis and shawls,
and the scene was like none either of us had witnessed. I was
amazed: this was a different world from San Francisco. It was
serene, intellectual and focused, nothing like the wild party
mood of San Francisco. It was like a glimpse of Vaikuntha. Swamiji
smiled and acknowledged our arrival, and continued chanting.
After the lecture he let everyone know that we were devotees
and artists who had come from San Francisco. The New York devotees
welcomed us and we began to live amongst them just like a family.
It was perhaps one of the sweetest times of my life. I remember
we were very poor, yet we were very rich. Swamiji was our wealth,
our joy and our everything. The devotees in New York had this
mood and everything evolved around Swamiji. In San Francisco,
Swamiji was in his apartment and guests visited by appointment
and most people were new. The devotees in New York, on the other
hand, had been there much longer and it was clearly Swamiji's
home. We practically lived all together like a family: Swamiji
was the head and we were the children. We spent the days together;
we had prasadam in his apartment. He was with us all the time.
We would sit around in his room, in the evening talking all of
us together like a family. We would all sit in his room, doing
painting during the day. For the first couple of nights, Gaurasundara
and I slept on the concrete floor the temple room, and in other
areas of that floor slept Gargamuni, Brahmananda, and several
other devotees as well. It was not very comfortable. There were
rats that prowled the area at night, sometimes awaking devotees.
One night Gargamuni woke up because a rat got into his hair and
the next day devotees were teasing him because his hair was long,
down to his shoulders, so the rats liked it. Gargamuni was Brahmananda's
little brother, he was very young and liked having his long dark
hair parted in the middle and Swamiji would say: "Like Lord
Caitanya". So Gargamuni would defend his long locks by saying
that his hair was like Lord Caitanya's. These were the family
moods that permeated our early days in New York until we found
a small apartment, we then moved over to Satsvarupa's apartment.
There, Gaurasundara and I slept on a blanket on the floor in
the kitchen, at a tiny front room, and Satsvarupa camped out
on the floor in the next room and Raya Rama in another room.
I recall hearing the sounds of a type writer in the wee early
morning hours, 2:30 or 3 AM and peaked in to see Satsvarupa sitting
on the floor, hunched over a type writer, transcribing Swamiji's
Srimad Bhagavatam tapes. I was impressed. These devotees were
unlike any I had ever seen before. They were totally dedicated
to Swamiji and had no other life. This was a really different
experience than San Francisco. In Satsvarupa's apartment and
I slept on a blanket on the floor in the kitchen and the bed
bugs were a problem. I would wake up in the morning with red
bites all over my cheeks. I tried turn in the other direction
with my feet to the wall but then my feet would be covered with
red bites. Swamiji asked us how we were doing and seeing the
red marks on my face, I explained to him that some bugs were
biting me. He laughed and said, pointing to his window: "Yes,
they also come here but I stay very still and when they think
I am asleep they come, then I catch them and chant to them, and
then put them out my window. By the breathing they know just
when a man is sleeping but I can trick them." His eyes sparkled
as he told of how he tricked the little bed bugs by pretending
to be asleep. So that night I tried tricking them but I fell
asleep and got bitten as usual and the next night, and again
and again and again to no avail. I couldn't catch them. A few
days later I told Swamiji: "I've tried every night to catch
them but I can't catch them. I breathe softly and try to pretend
that I am asleep but they are too clever. They don't come and
bite until I am really asleep. I don't know how you do this."
Swamiji laughed and wagged his head from side to side, saying:
"Yes, you have to be very expert". Thank you, Srila
Prabhupada for showing me your compassion even for bed bugs.
You cared even for these living entities who came to you only
for biting and sucking blood, and you gave them your mercy as
surely as those who came for serving. Thank you for showing us
how to live, how to love all creatures and how to give the benediction
of the Holy Name.
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